the exile, part I

this wounded animal
crouched at my feet
chained to herself
teeth bared
eyes wild
indignant

life is fight
she snarls
there is no love here
it fled
long ago
with hope

i will strike you
she spat
pacing
in her cell
of hate
you have left me
nothing
but
contempt
and i will NOT
submit to your
pretty words
and
false
advertising

where WERE you
when i needed
ANYONE
to stand
on MY side
in MY shoes
chained to my pride???
the only thing
that kept me sane
was refusing
to give up
ME

but i lost EVERYTHING
and you
BLAMED me
when i’m the only one
left
standing

and now you come
searching
for what

i have nothing
left to give
but destruction
i will tear
everything apart
i am raging
against life
burning
everything
away

fuck
you